Buying the Bling

Okay, so I've been with my guy for ... oh, just shy of seven years now. We're very happy, we're in love, we're a great match. But there's a snag, because there always has to be a snag. It's unfortunate, but that's just life, right?

Anyway, I've been ready to get married for a long time now. A very long time. He, on the other hand, is content with the way things are. We have almost broken up over this issue a few times.

It always goes the same way:
Me - I can't take this anymore, I'm ready, and I'm sick of waiting for you.
Him - Well, that's just dumb. Go marry some guy for the sake of getting married, and then I can be your second husband.
Me - You're such an ass.

I leave, and the following exchange takes place 3 - 7 days later:
Me - Just let me know it's coming sometime in the not-too-distant future.
Him - It's gonna happen, just not sure when.
Me - Okay, I'll just sit on my ass for another six months, at which time one of two things will happen. We'll continue this ridiculous cycle, or we'll be engaged.

Now, it's starting to look brighter, finally, although I have my doubts. I'll get to that in a minute. In the last few months, not only have we started seriously discussing marriage, but he has said that we will for sure get married in the summer of 2008. We've even picked out a ring. And boy oh boy ... I fucking love it. It's a gorgeous ring. Now, I generally like small classic pieces of jewellery, and this sucker's pretty big. But I don't give a rat's ass, because I love it and my guy has agreed with me.

So about my doubts ... Sometimes it feels like he just tells me what I want to hear. He'll appease me, try to ride out the fights, and then things will eventually return to their normal state. What if that's what's happening here? For all I know, he could never want to tie the knot, and he's just going to hold on to me as long as he can before I give up altogether.

That's a scary thought, though, so I'm trying to remain positive. I mean, I know it'll happen - despite my fears just a paragraph ago - but I wonder why it's taking him so long.

So we can just add Bridezilla to my list of attributes now ...