Money, Money, Money

So it's been a big time of transition for me. In the last two months, the following has occurred: I got engaged, I moved into a new condo that my hubby-to-be and I bought together, and last week I bought a car. Well, technically my parents paid for it, but I'll be paying them back, very slowly, each month. And since I already owed them many tens of thousands for my student loan, what's a little more right? Heh. I am so far in debt right now, I can't adequately describe it. Basically, the majority of my paycheque goes directly to the fiance (for the mortgage, strata fees, bills and groceries) and to my parents (to help pay off my student loan and car). Oh lordy. I worked it out the other day, and I am left with approximately $300 a month. That's including cigarettes, gas, and any shopping/entertainment/eating out. So pretty much: nothing. I can't afford shit. It's depressing, it really is.

I mean, this is supposed to be one of those awesome times in my life: I'm getting married in a few months, I'm a homeowner for the first time, and I actually have a car from this decade (as opposed to my 95 civic that is, by the way, for sale if anyone's looking). Unfortunately, I can't afford my lifestyle. The main problem is that I'm not making the kind of money I should be making. Seriously, I have a degree, I'm fucking TRILINGUAL, and I'm a super hard worker. What gives? It's just frustrating to be in a job where I know I could be doing so much more, and where I know I deserve to make more money. So if anyone out there knows of a good job, hook me up.

I feel like my life is bipolar sometimes; so many wonderful things happening in my personal life, but professionally I just feel frozen. I just don't know what to do.